February 2012
21 posts
Single
To be honest, I don’t like being single. I’m not trying to say I’m desperate or anything, but just having that feeling of commitment with someone else simply just makes me happy. I instinctively put so much into a relationship, I’m not really careful as to if it ends. That’s always something that bothers me to the nth degree. It’s always one of my greatest fears...
Longing.
At moments, I tell myself that all is well and all will be well. And then at other times I will say that nothing will ever be good again. I hate the fact that my mind is relentlessly conflicting with itself. Through days and nights, I’m bothered by burdensome thoughts of the past, present, and future. And for all I know, it’s either hopeful or hopeless. Optimistic, pessimistic. Smile...
January 2012
125 posts
February
Honestly, that’s going to be a tough month for me. There have been dates within this month that were considered the greatest in my life. To go through this month without knowing that those feelings I felt within those days cannot be felt again will be anything but enjoyable. I’m not looking forward to it because once those days pass, memories will overcome my very being and shroud me...
Nostalgia
Kicks my ass every damn time.
Once you start singing and you love it,
itsoddrey:
You can never stop. You just always want to sing. Its just like being on stage; once you love being on stage, you just always wanna perform. Man. I miss worshiping with everyone. So Blessed to be able to use the talents that God gave me (: Time to sing alone in my roooom! Ahaha.
It's been a year
Since that day where I mustered up my courage and sang a song for someone that had so much meaning and so much passion behind it in front of a big audience. I gave a gift that was irreplaceable and that it can only be experienced, probably, only once in a lifetime. Alas, if I were to go today, it would hurt more than it would entertain. Because it still hangs in the back of my mind.
